Life is a Masquerade

wow, so, I haven't been tagged in like, forever, but, ok::

People who have been tagged must write their answer on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. I was tagged by: fraponese

1. I tag: atellix, ericloveslife, kid_a_85, magnummike, shindig1979, singing_goddess, stefbrendiva, anndddd the_becster

Here are some things...

Something I'm glad about: that I shaved my legs today because while I was at the gym, a guy asked me about my tattoo.
Something that bothers me: When someone says, "Okay" after you say, "thank you" wtf is that about?
Something that is exciting: I get my headshots done soon!! woo hoo!
Something overwhelming: I'm working a billion hours over break... and two of those days are 12 hour days.. I may die.
Something to look forward to: LOST tomorrow night, and watching it at home (I'm going home tomorrow!)
Something I'm kind of upset about: I don't think I'm going to Israel this summer. I don't think I got my deposit in.
Something frustrating: The place I got a summer job with hasn't sent me my contract and/or answered my e-mails.. blah
Something I miss: Josh Groban Concerts... and obviously, my friends
Something I wish: that I can lose the weight that I need to.. its becoming increasingly harder for some reason.
Something I hope: that I meet a boy. (but who doesn't?!)
Something I can't wait for!: summertime and camp and the beach and shorts and tank tops and swimming and the 4th of july!
Something I'm waiting on: My RA letter, I really want that fucking job!
Something I'm craving: Coloring. Blia bought me new crayons and I need to buy a coloring book, its driving me nuts!!
Something that needs to happen: I need to be discovered/make my break soon, or I'll go crazy.

otherwise, things are well. Spring Break is soon, and then after that, April may kill me(the month, not the person). I feel like that month may end up consuming my soul. But, I'll just have to wait and see.

Hey all! I just got back from an awesome night, and here's how it went::

First, lets start out by saying that I went to Jacques Tores' chocolate place with Joanne, her son Michael, and Lynann. AMAZING. ok, so then, we went back to Michaels apt. to get changed. Once changed, we got our sharpies and pictures and headed for the door. The subway ride was interesting because all we did was talk about Josh.. duh. We got to the Time Warner Building and it was REALLY big.. I've only been in the city for a couple of months, so I'm not up on ALL the hot spots yet.. but I'm working on it. ANYHOO, we get there and we find where we have to be.. we were clearly early so, we walked around this mall a little. Then, we decided that getting there early wasn't that big a deal, so we headed up to the 5th floor of JAZZ. Which is like, this cool part of the building that has studios and rooms and stuff in it. So, once on the 5th floor, we found the line. there were only like, 6 or 7 people in front of us. We waited for a little bit, then a tall thin woman came out and told us that they were going to take us to ANOTHER holding area. We get there and it's this cool room with like... barriers up so that we could form an orderly line.. We waited there for awhile and we got to watch the room fill up. Which, wasn't as bad as we thought because it was a lot of people we knew and in general, not a ton of people. They then told us we were going to check in. They send us out *in line* to get checked in and we got these AWESOME lanyards with the Josh Noel picture on them and they say "XM Artist Confidential Josh Groban December 1, 2007" They were pretty sweet. We went back into the holding room and we waited for some more. After another like... 15 minutes, a guy came out and told us he had good news and bad news. the good news was that Josh wanted to add a couple more songs, (which everyone got SO excited for) and the bad news was that the start of the show was going to be delayed (which no body cared about because the prospect of new songs was too great).. SO, about a half an hour later, they let us in. Apparently, they let in the "VIP" people first because the first two rows were taken already. So, Me, Lynann, Joanne, and Michael got seats in the 3rd row. They were perfect seats. yeah, there were people in front of us, but still, just moving your head about an inch would give you perfect view again. So, one of the producers came out and told us the history of XM Artist Confidential and how they wanted to do something original... The jist of it was that it was a MUSIC version of Inside the Actors Studio.. There was a moderator and he asked questions, and the audience was able to ask questions, which was pretty sweet. So, the moderator came out and he introduced Josh, and Josh came out with Darren following up. So, they moderator talked to josh for a bit and talked to him about writing his own music and such, and that led to February Song. So, he sung that. AWESOME. Obviously, the acoustics were awesome because of the venue... So, after that, they got into Josh on Ally and how his songs effect people, and he sang To Where You are. even awesomer (yep, awesomer) The audience asked a couple of questions and stuff and one was about the Grobie Charity. But then they got into who josh performs with and stuff and he ended up going into Lullaby. Then, they talked about Simon and Garfunkel and he sang AMERICA (WHICH IS MY FAVORITE!!!!!) and it was cool because all the band (tariq and Lucia and stuff) were mouthing along to it. So, then, they chatted about Josh's talent and how he could and did do some broadway type stuff. Which, led into Not While I'm Around. After that, one of the audience told josh about how when she's down and sad, she puts Josh's music on, and she asked what music he listens to when he's down. He told her that he liked to sing when he was down, but listening to his own stuff wasn't as good. He talked about hearing himself on the radio and how him and he was at some place with his "ex-girlfriend" and they were watching a buffalo and the car radio was in the background, and Your Raise Me Up came on and he said that it soothed the buffalo. haha. They got into his foreign stuff and talked about Il Postino and how he got to sing the song Mi Manchari and then he sang it.. haha. Then, something was happening with his orchestra and they had to leave or something and the last song he sang was The Christmas Song. it was awesome as well. He said goodbye, and took a bow and left. We also left and found the stage door. haha.. we wouldn't leave without the stage door, duh. So, we saw a couple of people come out, like, the orchestra and stuff, and then Darren came out. because there wasn't a lot of us, he told us to get into a single file line and face the building, kickline style. Then, the man came out. the rules were the same as always, not posed pictures ::boo:: have everything to be signed out already, take pictures, no putting stuff on him (which is weird to begin with). So, he came out and started an the far end. I got my XM pass signed and Joanne had printed out some pictures and I got one of them signed. AND, it was awesome because he told me, while signing, that he liked my pea coat. I like, melted. He went down, he signed Joanne's and Lynann's stuff and everyone elses. Then, as you heard, Lynann called Cristen and talked to her ringer for a little bit.. haha. He then peaced-out. We were all walking around THUD-ing all over the place, and Lucia ended up coming out. People were taking pictures with her and stuff, and she signed the other side of my pass. After that, we went back into the mall and talked about it, and then I called my dad and thanked him for the pea coat

We went back to Michaels apt, got our stuff, and here I am. on cloud nine. still in awe.

::sigh:: awesome weekend.

the end. Pictures to follow.. obviously.

Edit to Add::
I also left some things out that I'm just thinking about now.. Like how josh and everyone play Guitar Hero after shows and stuff because they're still keyed up from the show.. and Tariq always wins.. and how because they play so long, he gets to sleep at like, 3am and wakes up at like.. 2 in the afternoon. AND also he did his South Park impressions from the one episode about Guitar Hero and stuff.. And, one of the things I found awesome was how he talked about being "discovered" and how he wasn't confident in himself and how David Foster gave him that shove that he needed to believe in himself and his ability. Thats what got me the most because I think that relates to me as an *aspiring* actor because I know that with me losing weight, I feel like I'm not comfortable in my skin right now. and I'm not sure how other people perceive me... it was really deep of him to put himself out there like that. Like, a lot.

ok. so, I made it through alive and well.

my audition went well enough, but it's now a waiting game mixed with one of those situations where, the more you think about it, the worse it seems.. I have to wait to find out if I made it, and I feel like, when I walked out of there, I was indifferent as to how things went, and now, I feel like I keep thinking on things I could have done to make it better...

My comedic monologue went better than my dramatic, partially because he laughed at my comedic and when I was grabbing for an emotion in my dramatic, I couldn't get it... and I don't know why.. I need to do some self-investigating. I think that if I don't make it into the BFA--acting, I just hope to make it to the BA--Theater Arts Cons. Acting.

I was taken aback when I got there because I though it was going to be a million people auditioning and I was going to be auditioning in front of like, 6 or 7 people... but I walked in and it was me and like... 5 other people (out of the total of 12 that were auditioning, b/c we all had different times) and I walked into the audition room and it was ONE professor... I think I let my guard down because of that... which I shouldn't have.. and now, I'm just relying on my awesome letters of recommendation and my pretty spiffy essay to help me out.

today's the dayyyyyy!! I am rather excited and I can't wait to get out there and show them what I can do.... but I'm also nervous.. so you know. I'm just going to try my best and hope that they like me!!!

I'll post more later... after the audition!

wish me luck!!

 I miss being on stage. like... a lot. I miss how rehearsal takes over my life and how all of my friends liked the same things I did. It made things so much more fun. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends here and I wouldn't change them for anything, but I just miss having that connection with other people. I know that I'm in an acting class and that I really love it and stuff, but I just feel like I should be on stage in front of an audience instead of in a black box with like.. 12 freshman. It just kind of stinks sometimes. I do have an audition on Saturday for Nickelodeon, but I think I'm going by myself.. and it's like.. an all day thing because all the time slots were full and I have to sign-in as a walk in at like.. 9:30am and they don't start auditioning them until like.. 4:30 and so I'm getting really excited for everything.  I actually JUST read that I need a monologue... sheesh. so, now, I'm looking. Everyone needs to cross their fingers on saturday... maybe I'll make it! :)))

ok, well, I'll update more this weekend! :)

well, I spent quit a bit of tie in the city this week.. let me tell you. Saturday, I went up with my mom and ray to tour and such.. it was just a look because I had never seen the campus before.. then, monday, I went up with my dad to show him and to take a math placement test.. which was pointless because I already had the required math.. then, today I went up by myself for orientation--which sucked the big one.

The campus is really nice. I kind of already know my way around because I'm pretty observant like that.. but its basicly two sky-scraper like buildings tat are connected and one of them is dorms and the other is classrooms and the caf and the gym and offices and such.. I found out some fun stuff about where in the city I am... all my fellow drama friends will love this. preface:: 1 Pace Plaza is across the street from City Hall and across the highway from 1 Police Plaza, so if I'm not doing anything one day, and Law and Order is filming, I can go sign up to be an extra in some scenes. SCORE. also, I get free tickets to Inside the Actors Studio, which is gonna rock out loud. Welcome week, we get to go see Wicked for $35, go on the Sex & The City Tour, go to the Sex Museum, have amatur night at the Apollo Theatre, and a few other cool things. At our "parents weekend" also called University Fest, we get $10-$40 Broadway show tickets, and tickets to Midevil Times... there's a lot going on, so we'll see. While in Manhattan on saturday, we went to Brooklyn to look at my building. it is WAY awesome. I am fully excited about living there. it's going to rock out loud. It's near a whole lot of things and there's a shuttle that takes me to campus and everything.. it's pretty awesome. Our room has a view of the new york city skyline, and we have a flatscreen TV, an air conditioner and a fridge already there for us. This year should be interesting to say the VERY least. 

I e-mailed my cousin Jason the other day because he is an entertainment lawyer in Beverly Hills and represents a lot of high end people, and I asked him if he knew any agents in New York so that I could start going on REAL auditions. He told me to call him when he got back from Germany, so, he's on my list. 

I hope people come visit me.. I'm not 7 hours away like before, and I' living somewhere fun and cool.. not in the sticks.. I really do want to have a good year, and I hope it all works out.. I still way stressed and everything, so we'll see.
later dudes.

ok, well, I know I haven't written in a while, but thats becaue I didn't feel like it/I was too lazy & tired. Summer is almost over and I feel like I just let time pass me by. I did nothing productive and I saw my friends twice. that really sucks a lot. I worked and I worked and I let time pass me by. I can't wait to leave for school but I'm also very nervous and concerned about living in the city. I've been to new york a few times, but I feel like this is going to be way different and overwhelming. It should be fun and exciting, but I just hope that I don't screw things up by being stupid or whatever. I've been in a genral sad mood lately. It doesn't seem to show that much, which is good, but I just feel that deep down, something is wrong. I feel like I could just cry for days. I also kind of feel like I'm missing out on things that everyone is doing.. I'm not sure what, but  feel like because Im so far away, no one cares anymore. This is why both times I saw my friends, I made the effort. no one came to visit me. which sucked. This is part of the reason I didn't write for most of the summer. Because I knew that it would come out like this. Like I'm some sort of selfish person.  I'm not, I swear. I just feel really down. Not the I'm-Going-To-Kill-Myself kind of down, but the kind that could be fixed with some sort of pick me up. 

I guess I'll start talking about camp, since that was a little more up beat. I really enjoyed the job, except for the kids.. haha, no, I'm kidding. It was fun, but a little annoying. I'm pretty sure I'm not going back there next summer, partly because of the over-extreme jewish-ness, but also because of the disorganized, nonprofessional nature. The Senior Staff was the worst and did nothing to help out or keep the peace this summer, and they just made things worse. BUT, I liked being with the kid and people my age and stuff. I wish I had a staff that wanted to be with the kids, but that was just another challange. I had some real space cadet girls in my group, and some really affectionate ones. And two that didn't talk at all. And one that ate averything... even off the floor. But, it was still good. We saw a show at monmouth U. and then we saw a kick ass puppet show of aladdin and the magic ring. I was Color War General, and we won. We had the camp carnival and we ate sno cones and cotton candy. I met some awesome people and I hope that I can stay in touch with.. especially because they all live in brooklyn. I only got sick once, except now I have a gross ulcer on my tounge. not bad. I didn't get lice, I didn't get the gross rash thing that was going around, and all in all, that made it good for me. I did lose my temper a couple of times- mostly on the bus, but thats because I had one of the mosr rude, crass kids on the planet. although, he may have been one of my favorites. By the by, there was a really cute kid in the Kindergarten boys group, his name is Freddy, and like, he is going to grow up to be a heartthrob. expecially if he stays humble and stuff. SO CUTE. I can't say that my girls werent cute. One of which came in with her two front teeth missing and is leaving tomorrow with no sign of them coming in at all... and another one who reminds me of an old lady that you just want to hug. and one with the prettiest eyes and smile, she could be a child star...except for her laugh, which is sort of Donkey-esque. I had a bully and the girl she picked on, a girl with connections all over the camp, and a couple more that were just random. It was a pretty cool summer, but I missed the beach. a lot. I hated walking into a classroom when thesun was blazing and the sky was empty. 

Speaking of the beach, I realized that the beach taggers in Ocean Grove have it WAY eaiser then ocean city taggers. They sit in chairs with umbrellas and although the math is a little more complex because the prices are higher, they do nothing compaired to what we had to. Their supervisors ride aound in golf carts, they on't have to wear a pouch, and, from all the times I've been on the beach, they don't sweep. they just stand stairs. wtf. that stinks. I 'm finished with that now and would like to talk about books. I've read a bunch of good ones this summer. >my Sisters Keeper >The Memory Keepers Daughter >The Amazing Adventures of Caviler and Clay > Water For Elephants >The Perks of Beig A Wallflower >Dorian Gray >Ferinheight 451 and I have yet to read A Spot of Bother (by the author of Curious Incident o the Dog in the Nighttime) oh, and also harry potterand the deathly hallows...of which I laughed, I cried, I got very fustrated, and then, good triumphed over evil and the end. It was an awesome book and although I was upset by all the deaths, I watchedthe dateline interview with JK and she explains A LOT. Like the reason she killed Lupin and Tonks and the one character that gets a reprive and the fact that ted tonks is kissing Bill and Fleur's daughter in the epilogue. And how she never intended to kill Hagrid. and things like that. It was a great ending. and I LOVED THAT PERCY CAME BACKKK! partially because I love percy a lot. and even when people said that he was evil now and that he hated the weasleys, I still loved him. <3 ah loyality. And On the HP topic, Movie 5 was pretty sweet as well. It was missing my favorite parts, such as Dobby (and ew,  was pissed when he got killed.. senseless killing of house elves), and Lockhart, and when Harry and cho kiss on VDay and the Centar becoming the Divination professor... yeah. all that. Also HP related, I made Ray start reading the books he's on #2.. he says he likes it, so, we'll see.

To finish things off, I'd like to say that I'm thinking of a new tattoo for before school starts. I was hoping for a jewish star, but everyone I've talked to said that it would be kind of Holocaust-y. I don't know. I could get a Chai (not the tea, the jewish term.. kthanks) but everyone thinks it looks like a Pi symbol. wich is not what I want. so,I don't know yet. It would be nice, but I just don't know. 

ok, the end. long enough?

and, I'm back. finished wih the last book and very happy. I loved every minute of it and couldn't have asked for a better finish for such an amazing series. 

thats all I'll say for now because I know that there are a few who didn't finish yet... see ya!

hey friends, I hope everyone's week is going well, I thought i'd post to tell you that I'll be off line until monday. I'm trying my hardest NOT to get spoiled for the last Harry Potter book, so, until Monday, you can IM me or text me :)

I hope everyone going to a release party has a blast, especially the people coming to Mays Landing Borders! Talk to everyone on monday!!!

and just for posterity::


^^Just fyi

(credit goes to caoil)

so, long time no talk, right? How has my life been? pretty good. Tiring, uneventful and stressful. Lets start with camp. Camp started at the end of june. I have a group of 14 girls who are 5-ish. They're all pretty cute and stuff, some of them are annoying but you know, that kind of shit happens. I have two girls named Danielle, two girls named Fortune, Gitta, Arlette, Violet, Olivia, Sophie, Esther, Ruthie, Elizabeth, Stephanie, and Madison. Well, Sophie is the fat one that I have to tell to stop eating, and take her plate away; Violet has a voice that sounds really low and gravely and she has red hair and is as pale as a ghost; Olivia is allergic to Gluten, Esther is kind of Autistic; Danielle T. is a very heavly accented brooklyn girl; Fortune B. has like, 10 brothers and sisters and they all work at camp;Fortune S. is a wild thing that doesn't ever stop...ever; and Ruthie is a big bully. All the other girls are cute and nondiscript. Its been pretty interesting so far thissummer. Ruthie is so much of a bully, that some of my girls don't want to come back to camp, but they do, and I hear them whine allabout it. 

Also, I'm a bus counselor. My bus kids are ok... pretty annoying, but ok. I'll list the cute ones first:: Joseph, Regine, Grace, Perscilla, Dennis, Esther S... now, the cute, but kind of annoying:: Esther D., Marc, Marvin, Arlette, Lauren, Esther D. (there are 2), June and Fortune S.. and the MOST annoying kid on my bus:: Albert. haha. He's just so annoying. I just want to smack him some days. 

ANYHOO, yesterday, I came back to camp after my bus run was finished and Iwas talking to my boss about what I'm going to do with ruthie and her being such a bother, when this woman came barging in yelling that her son was missing. We tried to figure out what was happening and stuff, and he said that he usually gets off the bus at 4:10, and it was 4:45 wen she came in. She said her neighbor's son got home and her son didn't. And so, the search began. I ran upstairs looking in every room and couldnt find him. The Cleaning service was ordered to stop, incase something had happened to him. I decided maybe he wondered into the big camp because he missed his bus or something... so, I went into the big camp looking in all the rooms and in the gym and the indoor pool and the outdoor pool and the shemesh pool and racketball courts and everything. by the time I finished that, and got back to the shemesh office and there were police there.. the mother, who I forgot to mention was pregnant, was like, hysterical and we thought she was going to give birth right there.. then the dad came and started freaking out, then grandpa came, then auntie and uncle x2, then grandma, then cousins and everyone was looking.. it was an ordeal. Finally, the mother got a call from another one of her sisters who told her that the bus people called and their kid was asleep on the bus. SO, the parents wanted to talk to the bus counselor, so my boss called her and told her to come back in, and when se did, the father basicly degrated her to oblivion. I couldnt stay inside.. I went outside to wait for the bus to get there with the kid. and so, all was reunited before sundown.. it was a Shabbot Miricle! 

this has been my life so far. I saw Harry potter and LOVED IT. parts that were left out made me sad, but I won't go into detail because I know some haven't seen yet. maybe next week I'll detail my report... AFTER I finish Deathly Hallows, which, a week from today, I will be reading.also, a week from tonight is going to the be the best concert EVERRRRR!! and if anyone has a funny joke or anything, I'm tryingto win backstage passes to meet Josh. comment with jokes or whatever.. I need it by wednesday night!! AH! 

ok, well, breakfast!! later skaters!

well, nothing's new, nothing's happening, I'm pretty bored and I've got nothing to do. I get my car tomorrow night, then wednesday night I have to go to a thing for work and I get the list of girls in my bunk and my schedule and stuff which is good because this all needs to start before I REALLY go stir crazy. 

I keep breaking out in hives and I'mabout to rip my skin off my body.. it's killing me ad I don't know why they keep popping up. Fathers day weekend was pretty fun. Friday night, I went out with my mom, ray, john, sandy, Jerry, Cindy, and Kathy. it was fun.we went to this thai place and as soon as we got there, the owner came to our table and asked us whose birthday it was.. five people pointed at me. so, no it or not, friday night I turned 21. It was cool because he like.. ordered us food and he gave us free dessert and the ENTIRE room sang to me. I felt kind of guilty, but then I realized it was pretty close to my half birthday.. so it was ok. We drank like... 4 bottles of wine and ate massive ammounts of food.

Saturday was the car show and ray brought down his VW bug. LOVE IT. it was green with the white wall tires and everything. It rocked but when we got to the car show, it was like, a lot of muscle-type cars and ray's itty bitty bug. BUT there was a guy there who had a VW bus and he told ray about some of the VW only shows.. so that sould be cool. 

Sunday I went to philly with my mom to see my dad. I got him a shirt and stuff. He met us at my grandmothers house and we went out for lunch and ice cream. Then, my mom an my grandmother went out and stuff and my dad brought me back and we went home. 

blah. I'm finished here. goodbye and goodnight.

I thought a change was in order because of the start of summer and everything, so, I think you all should take a gander and let me know. I think its kind of quaint, and nice..nothing to crazy. 

Today I learned that there is a new CD out that has some of the best performers on it. It's a benifit for Darfur and the online version has one Josh Groban singing John Lennon's Imagine. It rocks my socks off. a lot. There are some pretty sweet artists on there too.. Aerosmith, Black Eyed Peas, Jack Johnson, Ben Harper, Matisyahu, Postal Service, Jack's Mannequin, REM... the list goes on.. but apparently, on the CD you can actually go into stores and buy, Avril Lavigne sings Imagine.. f that. BUT! I downloaded josh's version so that I would have it. ::joy:: 

otherwise, besides being scared for my life today being alone, it was fairly uneventful. blah. 
I miss my friends<3

ETA:: Me being supid forgot to add that the CD for Darfur is ALL John Lennon songs.. not just Imagine. kthanksbyebye

ok, well, its been three-ish weeks here and I just want to die. I hate it here. HATE. I hate that my friends are down in ocean city planning things and going out while I'm stuck here with nothing to do. EVER. It's not my fucking fault I had to move here, so, I don't understand why I get punished for it. I have no car, no friends, I feel like a fucking hermit, and it never stops. Every time I talk to my friends, its all about how much the miss me and all this nonsense, and yet, they know I don't have a car, and they know I have no way of seeing them.. why can't they come see me? they know I'm not doing anything and its not THAT far away. and yet, all I ever get are excuses, and it really sucks.. like. a lot. And I don't want people saying, "oh, I wish you could move back to oc" because I can't and thats unrealistic. but you know what is realistic? take a few hours to visit. I try to come down.. I really do, but there is no bus and/or train to take me. there is no private limo service or taxi that will take me. everyone who has a car is sitting in south jersey. 

I'm just realy ticked because I feel like I'll never see my friends again. like.. I'm fully aware that the world doesn't revolve around me but to be quite honest, I don't care. I feel like I am slowly going to drift away and out of their lives and no one is going to care, and more than anything, I don't want that to happen. I just want my friends back. I don't want to have to make new friends. contrary to popular belief, I'm not that good at it. 

well, I'm going to go do what I do every fucking morning. and, I really hate to say this, but I miss IUP because there, I knew who my friends were because no matter the walk, they could come visit, or they could call JUST to talk or we would meet somewhere for lunch or dinner..

oh well.

For everyone interested, the worlds OLDEST melon was found in Asia somewhere. I don't remember. it had a lot of J's and I's and I think a Y... but I thought it was pretty interesting. I also read today that Rome, Italy has traces of Cocaine and Pot in its air. how awesome! uh, thats about it... 
Here are the articles::
The Worlds Oldest Melon
and
Rome, Italy

 

the end.

well then, its been a long time... hasn't it! I've been home for a grand total of 2 and a half weeks, and as of now, I hate it here. Its not that I want to go back to school (because I don't) but I want to go back to ocean city. I want to be with my friends. People here are loony and old and gay and they all have dogs that are retarted and annoying. UGH. it just pisses me off. I really want to get my car, but I don't know where I would go with it. I have no where to go. Work doesn't start for another month and I have yet to see kis here that are like... normal. This place is retarted. I don't understand why my mom and ray love it so much. I just wish I was back in oc. More on this subject later.

Sice I haven't written in a long time, I'll update you. My brother graduated college. It's kind of strange. He's like.. done. for now. he's getting his own apartment and being adult-like. its all very new to me. but, all in all, I'm really happy for him. We had a blast in georgia and ate WAY TOO MUCH. although, I didn't get a peach.. boo. For mothers day, we went to a japanese steakhouse. it was very yum. then, for jar's graduation, we went to this brazilian steakouse. also YUM. we also went to this bar on top of the Weston Hotel and it spun around and we could see all of atlanta. it was cool. it got even cooler after my long island iced tea. haha. We got to meet my brother's girlfriend. she's super nice and I think he really likes her, which is good. otherwise, I learned that my inner ear hates flying and lets me know by making sure I'm in pain the entire decent. nice.

So, I figured that before I start working at camp, I would want to make a little extra money, so I put in an app at the local ice cream parlor. they blow because they didn't call back. And, I don't even want to work there anymore. I got a call from camp and they told me that I was going to be the head counslor for a group of Kindergarten girls. NICE. She also said that I'm going to have my own room, an assistant, and two junior counslors. I assume that because there will be four of us, there will be a buttload of kids, which will be ok.. I guess. haha. I really just want camp to start. I wish it were longer but all the kids are still in school. The woman at the JCC also said that if I wanted to work before camp started, I could because they always need subs and stuff for the school. I think I'm going to wait until I have a car. Things will be eaiser that way.

ok. random fact that I thought I'd share. cost of seasonal beach tags in ocean city, nj:: $18.00 cost of seasonal beach tags in ocean grove, nj:: $75.00 WTF is that?! who in their right mind came up with that one?! someore stupid and on drugs is my guess. This is another reason I hate ocean grove. another reason is because my friends are an hour away. Everyone keeps telling me that things will be idfferent when I have a car, but the thing is, I don't like to drive. especially when the shoobies are like... ravinous to get to the beach and philly driers suck to begin with... so like... wtf. and to top things off. I'll be driving a car with a philly plate on it. fuck that shit. its a fucking huge car too. not like I'm used to. which makes things even scarier. Its not that I'm a bad driver, its just that everyone else is, and thats what I hate about driving.

Some exciting news. I got kick ass seats for the josh groban concert in july!!  it is going to ROCK OUT LOUD! I'm just really happy about them. Also that weekend is the release of the last harry potter book and I get to do everything with my friends!... its like.. three things I love in a 72 hour period. whew.. like.. overload. I still have like... a month and 20 days or something, that has to wait..

There was something in the news that I wanted to touch on. "The Search for Madeleine" no.. not the french school girl who is quite naive, but the english 4-year-old who was kidnapped from her hotel room while her parents went out to dinner. I honestly had'nt heard about it until today becuase I'm not that big on the news lately, but seriously, I have some issues with this matter. Frist, this girl is one of at least a hundred thousand reported missing. why is is that she is the one everyone is going frantic over? I really don't want this to be taken the wrong way, but the line needs to be drawn somewhere. I mean, what parent leaves THREE children in a hotel room (age 4 and under) while they go out and enjoy themselves? and why does the media take pitty on them when it's clearly their fault in the first place? Now, the parents have an audience with the pope. That's all well and good, but besides prayer, whats the pope going to do? sniff the girl out? The reward for finding this girl is $5 million dollars. I truely will never understand how some kids get priority over others when in this case, the parents faulted and they should be blamed. In the US if the police/child services found out that a mother and father left their 4-year-old alone while they enjoyed themselves, they would havehell to pay. why isn't the media focusing on that? A quote from ABC news:: "The Missing People charity in London said that since Madeleine had disappeared, 1,200 other British children had gone missing." I really do hope they find the girl because that would bea great ending, but in the same respect, should her parents get their child back? also, is all this exposure in the media too much? what if the kidnapper, whoever it is, goes into panic mode or something and kills the girl just to get rid of her. craizer things have happened. 

ok, well, I'm out. its 4:30. I have things to do.

well, two days until I go home. I'm almost all packed. It's an awesome feeling. I have three finals tomorrow, and one on wednesday. Dad is coming on wednesday and taking me home! that seems the be the end of that. We're going to New York to see A Jew Grows In Brooklyn and then have lunch and then spend the night at a hotel and then o to Georgia! hooray. I'm excited for jared. He's worked really hard and now he gets to graduate. woohoo! 

well, thats it.. I really just wanted to show off my new icon. :)

sweet.

later skaters

ok. wo. just about 15 days until my freshman year of college is over. I have to say, I'm pretty surprised with myself. Its been an nteresting year with some interesting people...

our sign-in show was AWESOME! I was so happy about it. a lot of people came, and we made $1000 for Sign-In. its really nice. everyone did an awesome job, and I have some pictures to post, but I may just post the album. haha. 

I have to get ready for my finals and stuff. out of 6 classes, I only have 4 finals, which is good. I'm pretty ok with that, although I wish it was over now. hehe

For mom's birthday, Ray got us tickets to see A Jew Grows in Brooklyn! woohoo!! I'm so excited. this means, we're going to NY for the day. we're going to have lunch, and see the show, then, we're going to newark for the night because the next day, may 13, we leave for GA! Its going to be action packed from the minute I get home... so, I can't wait!!

I have to put down my DS while I study for finals... I'm so hooked that I can't stop playing it. I just need to put it in a drawer until finals are finished. haha

it WAS really nice here earlier today, but now its getting real cloudy and windy.. I fear it may start raining soon. ah! 

well, that was my add/all over the place update for the day. I hope you enjoyed!

the end!

Well, almost 18 more days. I feel like I may have a breakdown. How do professors not know that once one of them gives us a buttload of suff do, all of the others folow suite. I have 20 pges to write for english, I have to write up a deaf interaction, two audiograms and video tape my introduction for sign. 

I'm so over this. I jst wish I was home now. Tomorrow is our Sign-In performance and I thought I would be more excited... maybe because everyone is making me feel down by talking about all of their family coming. I really miss home. It's so hard for my family to get here so, I'm alone for tomorrow. Everyone is going to go out with their families afterwards adn I'll come back here and do nothing. as always. We had practice forever today and subsequently, I have a monster headache that makes me feel like my eardrums have holes in them and my cochlea is throbing. I'm so tired of everything. 

I'm pretty sure I don't understand things right now. Every time I walk in my room, my roommate is asleep. like.. I could leave at 2 to get to work and she's laying down and then I get here again at 6 and she's asleep.  I need to start taking things one day at a time. I think things are all jumbled up and makeing me even more stressed. My roommate sounds sick. If I get sick, I will kill her and I completely mean it. thats jut one more thingI need right now.

Also, Josh Groban presale tickets for AC are May 9. same day as my math final. same day as the day I finally get to leave this place and never look back. Its like, a milestone. 

well, I need to do something about this headache. 

later for now.

ps:: roommate is laying in bed staring at the wall... weird?